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im gonna lose what ive cherished once again

isnt it wonderful to know that when u come home theres someone or someting waiting for u at home.

life's gonna be meaningless again. im gonna come home looking forward for nth but tomorrow's nth.

if i'm right.. i'd better not be

im in pain now O_o and have been in pain for a couple of days now. stomach hurts like mad. and its and on off thing which makes it worst if u ask me -.- and heres the disgusting part. im shitting out everything im eating.

putting that aside, somehow theres just a strange feeling in me that... something is going wrong and that something will go wrong.

im not me once again

i had my gastric attacks again. and trust me it hurts. my gastrics are the worse -.- they hurt like no tmr. and i was at work during tat time so -.- there was nth much i cud do but bear with it. im still suffering from the after effects.

because of the pain i was reminded of sth =) anyway no i shant talk about it

i think one of these days im gona break down cause of the things i have to keep to myself o.O'' and the only reason i don mention them is so noone gets hurt. (this is such an irony to my last 2 post). until i've had enough =)

right at this moment? right now? im in need of someone to talk to =/ someone who will understand. or maybe someone lame =o for now. really working is my option out of reality. the laughs are fake. but o wells. at least i do laugh.

well, cheeros i finally have my room for the weekend for the nxt 2 days. at least i'll be having rest.

i want to SMILE again so bad o.o but nope i cant. i cant find it no matter where i look =o hey, whens the last time u smiled? and nuuu im not talking about laughing =o im saying a true blue smile. i cant rmb mine. can u?

i want those worrysome days where.. even if things do go wrong. u'll find ur way through that or it doesnt matter even if it went wrong.. whats a mistake or two if u have a load of happiness in front of u =o

oh i deleted my friendster and facebook cause i don use them anyway. and am changing blog just as soon as i think of a name for it. changing my msn to the more formal one too. mongsterz sounds so corny anyway =o will do all that just as soon as i head down to change my hard disk.

i find. even the way im typing things a lil diff o.O lol w/e i do not care. so its bed time for me now. works on tmr. and yay no boss. oh yea work. NAS-F took my hp and scanned through my pictures. omg. i totally forgot i had this super private picture inside. EMBARRASING O_O k no it was not nude -.-

nxt post up will be on my "suicide" pls note the attempt.---> "" <--- IT MEANS ITS NOT REAL when i have the time that is -.-

i've had enough

first u take my bed.
next u take my room.
now u wan the bed i have to sleep on IN THE LIVING ROOM?

TO THE VERY NOISY PERSON

SOMETIMES UR CHILDISHNESS REALLY MAKES ME WANNA LAUGH. U GET ANGRY WITH THE SMALLEST THING. AND THE MOST REDUNDANT THING. U COMPLAIN ABOUT THE SMALL AND THE MOST REDUNDANT THING. IS IT CAUSE U FEAR TO BE SMALL AND REDUNDANT? YOU DO NOT RESPECT PEOPLE ESPECIALLY NOT THEIR BELONGINGS.

I HAV 2 WORDS TO DESCRIBE U.

1ATTENTION 2WHORE

phail

and that wud be my problem. both my mouse and cat's failing on me now. what a bummer. ah wells.

FATE

cat

cat's outta food need buy sth for it soon. but i have no time. need to rush out my work =o left with 3 days. and lets hope nth goes wrong O_O food tmr after work. den its work all the way for me! coffe stock and food stocked checked =D

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