i'm sorry i need to rant

i do know i feel sad..
i do know is at times like this i just miss boyboy..
i do know at times like this i love to carry him around..
i do know at times like this i'll occupy myself in cleaning him up..
i do know i need him now more than anything else..
i do know i make use of him for entertainment and joy
i do know despite that i loved him alot and he loved me
i do know he was always there for me
i do know if without him.. god knows what i would be right now..

i really really really miss you boyboy o.o although i know is bad to miss you only when i'm feeling sad or bored. ahboy o.o korkor loves u u noe ma lol T.T i miss your smell T.T i miss your iritatingness I MISS YOUR BAD BREATH.. but most of all o.o i miss your presence. it always brought me joy. o.o just seeing you would put a smile in my face. just thinking of u put tears. and its cause of this importance i have in you.
I HATE HIM
FOR NOT UNDERSTANDING THE IMPORTANCE IN ROLE MY BOY PLAY IN MY LIFE.
IF ONLY BOY U COULD LAST FOR A FEW MORE WEEEKS BOY YOU WOULD STILL BE WITH ME RIGHT NOW AND U WUDNT HAVE TO LEAVE.
life is full of if only and what could have been